My energy is limited. Investing, or "stock trading", shares some similarities with falling in love and self-growth. Self-doubt and self-protection constantly pull me back.

I might never be fully prepared, and I can never achieve "100% certainty," but bravery should be "moving forward even when afraid."

Recently, I've been feeling a mix of emotions every day. This post mentions "staying away from anything or anyone that drains me." Perhaps sometimes I am the one draining others, or perhaps I am my own biggest "source of drain." But what can I do? This is just my personality. I seem to be becoming clearer, more determined, and more rational, but I'm still lost.

The past is gone, with no certainty from before; the future hasn't arrived, with no sense of certainty about it either. I'm stuck in the middle ground between the past and the future. This middle ground, put nicely, is called "self-growth"; put bluntly, it's called "self-imprisonment of never being ready." I want to open up too, but I'm truly not ready. I desire, but I'm also afraid. Bro, perhaps everything in the world follows the logic of "you have to give to get." I tell myself, "If I don't give, why should I expect to receive? Let go." Bless him, and let myself go too. Over. Self-healing, accumulating energy.

The same goes for investing. If you don't experience fear and uncertainty, how can you expect to be "there" or "present" when prices are rising?