I've found that once a person gets busy, they lose all desire to do anything. They have no mood to flirt with girls, no time to trade stocks, and even the ability to write is suppressed. In the end, I've become the person I hate the most. I originally wanted every day to be exciting, with a new story every day. But now it's a monotonous life day after day, all for the purpose of earning money to cover my positions, still trapped by stocks. Although most people are like this, I shouldn't be. I should be holding a different script, doing things others want to do but dare not, rather than working hard like the vast majority, leading a life as plain as water. This is more unbearable to me than anything else...